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Monday, June 18, 2012

Don't you hate to wake up to a "WTF" moment?

Last week I woke a wee bit on the pissy side. Because of a dream. I was also very confused as to why my subconscious did what it did. I'm still clueless because it refuses to let me in on it's sick little joke.

Nothing bad happened in the dream, but there was a guy there. A guy I loathed. Since grade school. A true ass-hat before the phrase was ever coined.

What's worse was that in the dream, he wasn't the ass-hat that I know. He was a relatively nice guy. Which made me even more mad that my subconscious would try to trip me up.

Okay, I'm not saying he's not a nice guy now, but I don't give a shit. I don't like him. At. All. Never have.

We first met somewhere in Elementary school in Redding. I don't remember much, just that he was a little jerk. Just like most boys in that age range. I think he moved before I did. I don't remember. I really tried to just believe he didn't exist. My parents and I moved after my 7th grade year was up, putting me in a new school for my 8th grade year.

And there he was. Still an ass-hat. As were a couple of other people I'd thought I'd gotten rid of because they'd moved before me.

Again, I just went about my business as if he didn't exist because I didn't like him.

I think it was my freshman year when I nearly punched his lights out. On the school bus. My fist stopped about an inch from his face, and there was fear in his eyes. He was probably afraid of his reputation - I mean, how would it look to get a black eye or broken nose from a girl in front of a bunch of his friends? Bad. Real bad.

I'm not sure what stopped my fist. But when I finished having my say, I looked up at the bus driver and her eyes were on me. I sat down and endured the ride home.

Why did I nearly hit him? He touched me. Not anything horrible or perverted, but I didn't want his slimy ass-hat fingers on my belongings let alone me. And considering he ignored my "take your fucking hands off me" line, I had no choice but to put the fear in his eyes. Oddly enough, for the next 4 years he never touched me, and I'm pretty sure he never spoke to me again, which was perfectly fine with me. He would give me "looks" as we passed between classes once in awhile and I'd either ignore him or if I was feeling particularly sassy, I'd flip him the bird.

So what the hell was my subconscious thinking putting this ass-hat into a dream of mine? Albeit a weird dream - quite weird in fact. I don't remember many of the details now, but a few things still stick in my mind. I mean, I know dreams are typically weird. And I've had stranger, weirder dreams. I've had nightmares where I wake up hyperventilating with silent tears streaming down my cheeks. Luckily the latter are extremely rare. But why would my brain pick some guy I haven't seen since graduation, never think of, and don't care anything about?

Not a clue. But I hope it doesn't happen again anytime soon.

20 comments:

  1. Oh Freud would have a field day with this lol!

    Dreams can be cunts though, I recently had a dream where I was friends with the bitch that made my laugh hell. I actually was so upset when I woke up and realised that the dream friendship was a lie

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    1. My thoughts exactly! lol I know dreams are weird, it's their job to be weird, but seriously?! One can only take so much! lol

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  2. My guess is your subconscious is tired of carrying your negative feelings around all these years, and wants you to forgive so it can forget.

    Or you had one of those mochas you don't like recently.

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    1. Hahaha! Perhaps it was the mocha. ;o)

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  3. I have had times when I woke up thinking wtf was that dream all about talk about stupid or weird or something so you are not the only one who has these types of dreams.....

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    1. Good to know I'm not alone. I just hate waking up confused and cranky. lol

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  4. Given that it was a weird dream, the characters would have to be weird i.e. ass-hat guy you don't like. Maybe it was just a dream, or maybe you're about to meet ass-hat guy again...I sincerely hope not...for his sake and yours....:)

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    1. Oh I hope I don't see him again. Oh THAT would be a nightmare. LOL

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  5. I agree with what Hazel said, Freud certainly would! :P

    Certainly an extremely weird dream o_O
    Whoa,way to go! :D And you were right to do that too, such ass hats should just, idk disappear off the face of the earth?

    @Tales of her and by her.
    &
    @Teenage Babblings
    xx

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    1. I'm sure Freud would have a field day with humanity in general. He was a bit weird himself. lol

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  6. I can relate there was this kid on the bus when we first moved to the "sticks" as I call them. He was the same way, made me so mad. Needless to say when and if I see him, to this day, it makes my blood boil a little. He's just one of those, that no matter what. They just suck! That.Is.All. :)

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    1. Everyone has at least one of those in their past.

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  7. I'm living my 'wtf' dream...had a dream last week that my Hubby was acting like a jerk...

    Let's just say he's hitting a high batting average for ticking me off this week (and it's only Tuesday!).

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    1. After I posted this, he stopped acting like a jerk - go figure! (I know he doesn't read this). Maybe my intuition was forewarning me or something...

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  8. Based on the one Psychology class I took before dropping out of college, I feel that I'm qualified to diagnose you as being certifiable. It's the only explanation.

    (I don't often dream, but when I do it's always WTF so I can relate PERSONALLY as well as professionally.)

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    1. Thank you so much for your professional opinion on my certifiable-ness. LOL

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  9. OMG. I'm getting ready to post about a dream I had that seriously pissed me off! Is there something in the single person water right now? WTH? And, yes, HATE waking up to a WTH moment. Sadly, they've been happening with greater frequency.

    Okay. Analysis time. lol Ever since I was little, about half of my dreams actually do mean something, whether it's a metaphor type of thing or an out-and-out prediction (usually reserved for sporting events...no joke). When I have had a dream about someone from high school--good or bad feelings--it usually means somewhere, deep down, my emotions are still bothered by something related to this person, maybe something I never understood. I had these dreams about one guy in particular, one I cared a great deal about--and they were the same damn dream, with only slight variations. I finally realized the reason I kept dreaming about him, and I haven't had single dream about him since. Maybe it's a way for our minds to, I dunno, clean house? lol I don't know how else to put it, and I have no idea why now, after all these years they just suddenly pop out from our the shadows of our subconscious. Minds are fascinating...and annoying. Hence, why I prefer to listen to my gut.

    Maybe

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    1. Cleaning house, huh? That guy could have just been dumped and I would have been okay with that. LOL

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  10. Um, I swear I didn't type that "maybe." Okay, that's really weird. Maybe it was my subconscious?? Aw, hell, this is wiggin me out now. LOL

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